3 out of 5 months of playing the waiting game has passed so far! YAY! If I am being completely honest, I have stayed so busy that the time is moving fast enough for me to not be frustrated yet lol. Am I eager for the process to get started? ABSOLUTELY! I have come to trust that God’s timing is perfect. But that doesn’t mean it isn’t hard some days. I am human after all. I need constant reminders that God is bigger than this whole thing.
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With that being said, I am starting to get very anxious about it. I find myself bugging my husband to make appointments and I am calling the nurses with questions. This is pretty out of character for me. I am a very ‘go with the flow’ and ‘things will all work out’ kind of person. But apparently not about this. If you know me you know that I don’t enjoy waiting for things that I want now. My biggest (irrational) fear is that we will be slow at making appointments and the whole process will be pushed back a month and I will have to wait even longer. Ahhhh!
I catch myself daydreaming almost daily about when it will be our turn to hold a precious baby that is a little of Josh and a little of me! It makes me smile with excitement just thinking about it! Also, since we have a plan and a timeline, I am not affected by baby announcements like I was before! That ping of jealousy and resentment is not there for the time being! I hated feeling that way and I am glad to see it go!
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So, all in all, we are still playing the waiting game. It sucks but it is what is best for our situation. I promise to give another update when there is something to share! Next up should be our appointment in December that will give us all the details of what January will look like, retrievals, transfers, medicated cycles, ultrasounds, etc. Thank you to everyone that is keeping us in your prayers! It is more appreciated than you’ll ever know!
In the meantime, I have 2 very good friends that are bringing little girls into the world before then and I CANNOT WAIT!!
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God
Philippians 4:6
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We love you two so so much and are so very excited to walk beside you during this precious process!! You know you have our prayers and support! Love you bunches!!!
Thank you and love you so much!!
God is bigger than any of our storms! And waiting is so hard!! Hang in there its in Gods hands! Continued prayers
Thank you!!
We will be keeping you in our prayers. Stay calm and patience. We love you all so much.