There are tears streaming down my face as I type this. Yet another month of hope is behind me and the sadness is back. The sadness that has kept me company far too many times over the last 13 months. The worst part is I am a very optimistic person so each disappointment hits me like a brick wall. This journey can be all-consuming. Luckily my attention span is very short so I am easily distracted. I will not let the enemy steal my joy.
What a blessing it is that joy is not the same thing as happiness. I am not happy about this journey or situation. I am not happy that we aren’t holding a sweet baby yet. I’m not happy about all the tears we have shed during this process. But I do feel joy. Joy in the incredible world around me. Joy from the love of my savior. Joy is a decision!
So how do I find joy?
Joyce Meyer has taught on the subject of joy many times and always speaks exactly what my heart needs to here! In this article she wrote for Identity Network she talks about seven secrets to keeping your joy!
- Be led by the Spirit
- Simplify your life
- Pray with boldness
- Be quick to forgive
- Obey God
- Be yourself
- Let God invade every area of your life
I have struggled with just about all of these my whole life but even more so in the last year. When you are faced with a situation that can be dark and confusing you can struggle with letting go and letting God.
The thing I have to remember is that this valley is not the end. There are so many hills awaiting me.
We appreciate your thoughts and prayers more than you know! <3
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I love you two so dearly I cannot even begin to express with words. My heart aches along with yours but obviously in quite a different way. I am praying for for God to take you two under His loving care and bless you beyond measure with little feet in your home! You know I am always here, any hour of any day, for you to cry on my shoulder or just to sit with you and say nothing. Whatever you need. I love you, Mom R
Sending you hugs my friend. We know God’s timing is best, but sometimes not having the answers to our questions right at this moment is so hard. Praying God reveals his purpose for this struggle and that your spirits be lifted. I’m here if you ever want to talk. You have my number <3.
-Kim D